Birthday Party With Pony Rides :)

I went to my friends daughters 3rd birthday party on Saturday with the family :)

We had such a great time and it was so nice to spend a day together :)

Heather's Daughter Devyn had a "Pony Party" at Gibson Ranch. They got to ride the ponies for a good 30-45 minutes. DJ was so excited!!!

When we got there all Reagan wanted to do was just stand there and stare at people.. it was hilarious cause she would not take her eyes off of you for a good 5 minutes :)

then she would walk around a little.. she didn't like the grass that much.

DJ loved looking at the horses :)

Finally it was time to ride the ponies :) DJ was so excited. He got to ride all 3 of the horses and kept yelling "Yee Haw" Everyone was cracking up!

Here is Heather and the Birthday Girl Devyn!!!

and mommy with DJ...

After we got done with the pony rides we came back for cake... Reagan got her goodie bag and started chewing on all her stuff :)

and of course... DJ steals Devyn's soccer ball and starts kicking it around...

all in all it was a great day!

that same night I went out and had a few drinks with heather.. it was so much fun hanging out with her again. We have known each other for 10 years and that night we had our "First Legal Drink" together :)

Flash Back Friday :)

Me and my little sister :)

Me as a baby... the kids look a lot like me :)

that is what you call old school!!!!

why am i sad....

I ask myself that everyday.... Why am I so sad?

I have 2 beautiful children and a wonderful husband. I have a loving family and great friends...

I always feel like I am missing something. Am i not doing something right? I mean, I'm home with my kids everyday playing with them, mending boo-boo's, making them "nummies", change there diapers, give them baths, laugh hysterically with them, and cuddling them when its time for a nap or bed, or even when they just want to cuddle. Yeah the kids get out of hand sometimes, but they are kids. I love my kids with every beat of my heart.

I feel as though the ground is falling out from underneath me. I'm always stressed when it comes to bills and such. Dave is the only one working and before he got laid off from Chrysler we were finally getting back to normal, and as usual someone rips the carpet from underneath us and we are back to where we started. Luckily Dave got a job pretty fast but its less pay and less hours. Which really sucks and it brings even more stress.

I want to go back to school and get my RN Degree but its kinda hard when you only have one car right now and don't have the money to put the kids into daycare. I've ran the numbers so many times and its almost impossible for me to do. I have been looking for a job, but again its hard when you only have one car. Stuck again...

I am so tired of living in a small apartment. I want a house, but with the kind of credit score I have its again almost impossible. If i could go back to 18 years old and tell myself not to rack up my credit cards.. I would! Like people say, you learn from your mistakes and now I'm sitting her thinking to myself.. God what have I done! I'm 24 years old and I cant even get a loan. How bad is that.

Some days I just feel like laying in bed and crying but i cant, I have 2 kids that need there mommy. 2 kids that need love and comfort. Some nights I just watch them sleep, seeing DJ in his "yeiteen aqueen" car bed and Reagan in her crib I feel as though i am the luckiest mom in the world. But Why am I so sad?

I told Dave that when we finally get a house and we are financially stable i want another child. He looked at me and laughed. Seriously?! What is wrong with men? I loved being pregnant and I can not wait to have another child. I told Dave in the beginning of our relationship that i wanted a big family. I guess he forgot...

My weight has always been an issue with me. I get into a routine and then in a few weeks I don't see results that I want so I stop. I try and eat healthy, work out, etc.., But I just get bored and quit. I have always been self-conscious about my weight and the way I look. Out of all my friends, I was the bigger one. Not by much but you could tell.

I really need to call my Dr and make an appt. I don't think I can fix this on my own this time. I think my depression has gotten a little out of hand...

So I ask myself...

Why am I sad?

Almost Wordless Wednesday

Today I took dj to Walmart with me and got the kids a baby pool so they can play outside in the water! DJ picked it out himself too!

DJ was LOVIN the water!

Reagan... Not so much....

DJ was splashing all over the place and jumping in and out of it!

I tried to get a picture with both of them in the pool but reagan was trying to escape!!!

T.V. Tuesday

The Backyardigans

This is by far DJ's favorite cartoon/TV show... I swear he wants to watch it all day long, but cant.

The backyardigans are about 5 preschool animals with WILD Imaginations.

Pablo ~ a blue penguin wearing blue bow tie and a blue and yellow propeller beanie, is the one who most often has the ideas. Due to his energy and impetuousness, he takes the lead in many situations, but often goes into a "panic attack" when he faces an obstacle, running around in circles and telling everyone not to panic until someone interrupts him to propose a solution with "Pablo... Pablo?... PABLO!", at which point he stops, turns to the character and calmly asks "Yeah?".

Tyrone ~ A good-natured (and sometimes fearful) red-haired orange moose, he is Pablo's best friend, and almost his complete opposite in terms of personality. He is laid-back, cool-headed, and known for his ironic comments. At the end of every episode, he remarks, "That was an excellent (type) adventure, don't you think?" Despite not appearing to wear trousers, Tyrone somehow manages to put his hands in his pockets.

Uniqua ~ A curious, self-confident and high-spirited pink creature with polka dots and overalls, she is almost always sweet and friendly, though her strong opinions and occasional stubbornness get in the way of her relationships. She is more of a tomboy unlike her friend Tasha, often imagines herself in roles requiring brains and fortitude and loves books. But she can be sometimes more "girly" than Tasha in a few episodes.

Tasha ~ A little yellow hippopotamus, in red shoes and a flowered dress. Of the five characters, she is the only one who wears shoes at all times. She looks like a sweet little girl, but underneath she's rational, skeptical, and likes to get her own way. Of the five, she tends to be the most serious, though Tasha can also be giggly, silly and full of fun.

Austin ~ A fun-loving purple kangaroo who moved into the block recently during Season 1; this makes him a little shy on some occasions , as in the episode Castaways. He is also very self-confident, and tries to help his friends whenever they need, sometimes in quirky ways. "Austin's usually the one pulling up the rear. He's kind of a get-along guy."
Although rarely appearing in the spotlight, he does take the role of the lead character in some episodes.

DJ loves to dance and jump around while watching it.. He's such a goof ball :)

6:30am wake up call.... Week 18 :)

DJ thought it would be a great idea to wake up at 6am. I really didn't think it was funny.... So Dave got up with him and they went into the front room and watched a little Backyardigans. 6:30am rolls around and i can hear Reagan starting to fuss. So i go and get her out of her crib and bring her into the front room with the other 2 :)

My children need to learn how to sleep in. Especially on a 3 day weekend!

Yesterday we went to my cousin's High School Grad Party. It was pretty fun! We got there at 10am because we carpooled with my dad. My uncle made 10 Tri-Tip and 6 Chicken... OMG that stuff was so yummy!!! Of course both kids were going crazy because there was so much to do up there. Dave and I switched off kid for kid. DJ loves being outside so Dave had him most of the time.

After we got done eating and DJ woke up from his nap I took him out on the quad. He was having so much fun! He kept yelling "Yee Haw" and laughing hysterically! Dave decided to take DJ on the quad also and my dad said that if DJ fell off that Dave is going to have a long, long, long walk home.. LMAO!!!

I got to see my "ex" aunt (i guess you would call her that, they divorced) I haven't seen her since i was little. I was the flower girl in there wedding when i was 5 :) almost 20 years ago! We also saw some of my grandparents best friends. They looked just the same, and we talked about how we miss my grandparents and think about them all the time. It was good reminiscing :)

We finally leave around 6pm with our goodie bags :) My uncle always gives bags of food to everyone :) So we brought home some tri-tip, chicken, pasta, and rolls. YUM YUM!!!

I hope everyone has a wonderful Memorial Day... Stay safe out there :)

Mother & Son Saturday :)

Today DJ and I went to the County Fair with my friend and her daughter. It was such a nice day and we all had a great time :) DJ and I needed a really good mother/son day, just him and i :)

We get to the fair and DJ is so ready to go in and see all the rides and fun stuff. So we are walking to the gate and he keeps having to fix his sunglasses.. hehehe he it too cute!

We finally get up to the booth to pay and DJ and Sophie play while we are waiting in line. Kids under 12 were free and adults were $3 so it wasn't bad at all.

When we get in we decide to do the livestock/animals first because if we do the rides first, were not going to get the kids away from them. So we see a pony ride that DJ and Sophie want to do. He was so cute when he was on the horse, he kept yelling "Yee Haw" everyone was giggling :)

We get to the livestock and DJ isn't too sure about being up close and personal with them so he just stands back and watches.

We go out to where the cows are and one of the cows start "Mooing" really loud and DJ runs behind my leg and peeks out at the cow. I was cracking up!

After the cows, we saw that the horses were across the way so we headed over that way :) There was a horse in the first stall and it had a paper on its door that read "PLEASE DO NOT TOUCH ME, I AM VERY MEAN. I WARNED YOU!!!" Shannon and I were laughing so hard! So we walked over to the nicer horses. DJ finally started to put hay in his hands and feed the horses. He loved it because the horse was tickling his hand. He would giggle every time.

Finally we were on our way to the rides. We got the kids wrist bands so they could ride as many rides and they wanted to. Shannon took DJ and Sophie on the mini roller coaster. He was too cute waiting in line. He kept saying "Ride, Ride, Ride..."

They were on and going! you can kinda see his head in the picture :)

After his ride on the coaster i got him a sno cone. He was loving that thing! He wouldn't even let me have a bite.. lil stinker!

We went on a few more rides then it was off to the Farris Wheel. Shannon hates them! So we all went on it. DJ kept trying to stand up in it and it was making me nervous. Finally he stayed seated and rode the ride like a big boy!

We went over to the kiddie rides and we rode on the tea cups. He was having so much fun spinning it and then getting dizzy and laughing. He was very serious when he would spin it but then when it got going he would start laughing. He kept sliding over because it was pulling him.

He went on the baby Farris wheel with Sophie and he did really good. you can see his fingers poking out of the cage in the picture... hehehe

Finally we were ready to go, we were there from 12 to 5pm so it was a long day in the sun. And of course my shoulders got sun burned AGAIN... UGH! So on our way out I got the kids some Icees. DJ was so excited!

We got the kids in the car and by the time we hit the freeway DJ was out! He was so tired.

All in all it was a great day for DJ and I.

I love you baby boy!!!

Flashback Friday.. Happy 10 Months Reagan!

The first 2 pictures are from my senior year in high school, Back in my SKINNY DAYS :) My Best Friend and I wanted to get some professional pics done for our senior pics, aside from the regular senior ones. These were taken in 2002.

From Senior Year till about 2 Years ago we were inseperable. We would do everything together. Its sad that a few things got in the way of our friendship. I try and talk to her from time to time, but its not the same.

I found a picture of my dad when he was 21. He thought he was such a stud! lol

OMG Reagan is 10 Months Old!!!!

She is getting way too big!!! My how time flies!

Thankful Thursday

There are so many things to be thankful for! But for starters..

I am thankful for my Beautiful Healthy Son

He is such a goofy little boy but has a heart of gold. I love the moments i get when he wants to cuddle with me (which is rare). He is growing up so fast. I love you!

I am thankful for my Beautiful Healthy Daughter

She is my little drama queen. She loves to cuddle with me and then attack! She is growing up so fast. I love you!

Last but not least.....

I am thankful for

SWEET TEA'S

man i cant get enough of those!!!

What a Wednesday!

Today was Reagan's 9/10 month check up. She is such a little peanut!

Stats:

10 months old (on Friday)

Weight: 17lbs 9oz - 30th %tile

Length: 27 inches - 45th %tile

Head: 44.5cm - 55th %tile

She had to get 3 shots at the Dr office and then had to go and get an allergy blood test and a lead blood test. My poor baby girl was getting poked and prodded all day. At the appt i asked the Dr about DJ and his hyperness and she said that he might have some hyper activeness but they cant do any tests/studies on him till he is at least 3 years old. If he does have ADD or ADHD they cant prescribe meds till they are either 4 or 5. So we have a long way to go!

While we were getting her blood taken, they couldn't find any butterfly needles, so they had to use one size bigger. They also had a very hard time finding her veins. They went back and forth on her arms with that rubber band thingy and pushing on her arm to try and get a vein to stand up. Finally after a few minutes of looking, the nurse finally finds one and pokes Reagan....

All of a sudden Reagan is screaming her head off and DJ is looking up at her pouting and saying "sissy ouch, my sissy..." I almost got teary-eyed, it was so sweet that her brother was/is so protective of her.

After all the torture Reagan went through, we headed to my dads because our place was being sprayed and we couldn't go in the house for 4 hours. Finally 4pm rolls around and we head home. When we get home Reagan goes right to sleep, there is too much excitement at my dads house i guess :) She was so tired.

So here are a few new pics that the kids are doing... some of the things DJ does scares the sh*t out of me.

Reagan can climb on this all by herself!

DJ loves to jump off of the coffee table...

I guess this is what happens when you leave your child for a minute to go pee... *those are stickers*