im going through PPD :(

i think that i am going through a bout with depression. i have been super moody, very mean to dave, and im just not happy with myself. so on my next dr appt im going to talk with my dr to see what i can do or see what i can take. the other day i was taking so much crap out on dave and my dad said that i need to stop stressing so much and to calm down cause dave doesnt deserve that. and i totally agree with my dad. i have been super stressed on some things and i just dont feel like me anymore.i have heard that having two babies so close together can cause you to have way more hormones than a regular pregnant woman needs. and it can be either a good thing or a bad thing. i never thought i would go through this but it has hit me so hard. and im scared.
i know that weather can effect a person but im in northern cali and its SUNNY. i see my dr on the 12th so hopefully we can find something to help me.

happy valentines day!

dave and i stayed in and exchanged gifts.. nothing much new here either....

Happy V Day!!!

Tests...

so dave and i decided to have the tests done to see if our starburst will have downs or anything serious like that. so i had it at my appt today and will have the results soon! i cant believe how fast time is flying by. it seems like yesterday we were bringing dj home from the hospital. i cant believe that im 16 weeks already!!!

14 Weeks

so this morning i started spotting again so i called my dr and they sent me to get some u/s done. they checked everything out and the baby is still doing great. it was waving to me when we were doing the u/s. it is so cute and has grown so much!!! here are a few pics... i tried to see if we could get any money shots but it ws still too early :)

12 week appt

well the appt went well today and the baby is doing fine.. they said that there is still some blood around the sac and it should clear up but if i keep spotting for a week more then to come in and they will check it. they think i might have tore something. so i just need to be careful. the baby was movin and grovin and the babys arms were going all over the place so it was hard for the doctor to get a good picture... so thank you for all of your prayers. this is one stubborn little baby!!!
here is our Starburst!